(((djmart))) I am sorry you and your sister went through that. That must have been very scary.

I spent the rest of the day in tears, I guess maybe there was still a little mourning to do. I'm sure no matter how much I forgive and try to let go these things will suface from time to time. Always seems to be when I am not expecting it. I spent the day and evening on my couch. I've cried a lot my eyes are sore. But I've told myself I will feel these feelings today and then put them away tomorrow. I really don't want this to pull me off track.

Sheba, yes I think we all need someone older to look to for guidance. That's one thing I haven't had yet. I have no aunts in unckles, cousins or grandparents and my father passed away. I haven't found any parental figure yet and I think that's what I'm sorely missing.