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Oct 12, 2011, 02:28 AM
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Member Since: Mar 2010
Location: Indy
Posts: 43,373
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My Pdoc has finally told me she can no longer see me if I don't get back in therapy.  Lately she's just been ticking me off but that's another story. So I've been looking at this list of Ts that are close to me that insurance covers. Had this list for 2 weeks and still not made one phone call. So I thought about what has my hackles up about getting a new T and I figured it out.
I have had 4 Ts since I started therapy all of them moved somewhere else and tried to pawn me off on another T. They want to rip open every old infected scar you have. Drain everything out of it so it can start to heal right. Then right in the middle while you are a raw mess they move. They tell you "It'll be fine I gave your file to one of my associates. They'll take over from here." Really why thank you. I really appreciate you giving all my darkest ramblings and secrets to a complete stranger that I don't even know and don't know if I will like or trust. Who cares that you share office space with them? Why start something you aren't gonna finish? I'm tired of going over the same crap with new people and having to start all over. Why should I believe for one second this time will be different? What's the point of starting over yet again? Isn't that the definition of insanity? Doing the same thing over and over yet expecting a different result. Really do I have the time and energy to invest in another worthless relationship that will probably end as soon as I start to open up? I don't think I do but I don't have a choice.
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