Ok, mainly I just need to vent..and fill in some people...actually not even that. I don't really know what I need to do. WEll, I do, I need to cut. Which I have been doing more of lately, cut once last night, 2 times night before. I know this isn't much to many of u, but it is for me. I am wanting to cut again now...and probably will. But anyway, I had a really bad day, and have been feeling like [censored] all day. I had 2 tests today, and ended up missing 2 of my classes...(personal stuff)...anyway. I have to see my therapist tomorrow at 9. I'm really dreading it, I used to look forward to it, but now I'm to a point where I really don't think that she can help me. I don't think anyone can. I have gotten to a point where I realize what my problem is...and I am going to bury it...and just try to keep going. Anyway, just want to get some stuff out...sorry to waste ur time...

~Dreamer~

[b] I used to be so big and strong I used to know my right from wrong I used to never be afraid, I used to be somebody, I used to have something inside now it's just this hole that's open wide, I'll cross my heart I'll hope to die, but the needle's already in my eye, what I used to think was me is just a fading memory....--NIN [b]