You're taking stock and I think that's always a positive thing. What about sticking with therapy and getting a different T?

that's what I did. The process has helped me before to the GREATEST extent...I look at therapy as a kind of graduate school of life. However, I think that the match between t and client is of such utmost importance...no evidence that this is the case for anyone but me, but I wonder: how about a female T and a changeup that way?

You seem to be the considerate, thoughtful kind of person who CAN benefit from this process And then, there is the topic of medication.....not suggesting this for YOU, but others here have found that meds and therapy can be a powerful combo...maybe better than each on their own...?