Do you know if you are looking for a way to stay doing therapy or a way to quit? For all my ambivalence, questioning, belief in being harmed by it, and so forth, I actually am trying to justify doing it. For me, when I look at the lists I have made, any reasonable person would cut their losses and quit and get on with their life. I desperately want to be able to justify the tiny strand of hope I cannot seem to kill (though not from lack of trying).