Gabu,

I don't know where you are and I don't know what kind of community resources you have available to you. All I can go on is what's available here where I live, in a place where the government is incredibly stingy with paying for help for its citizens. Yet we still have (and I personally use) their free and very sophisticated training in both how to get into the school you want and also how to get the job you want.

Here's the essence of what I'd like to say: There are incredibly talented and highly knowledgeable people out there, working for government agencies that help people to get into school and/or get jobs. I am very, very impressed at their sophistication and their very astute plans about how to get each person into the situations they wish to have. So far as I know, such knowledge is by no means at all limited to where I live.

People in your area have to know these same things. And if you learn from them they will teach you tricks about getting into schools and getting jobs that I, for one, would never have thought of myself in a hundred years. It costs me nothing, I've found out, to have these people work with me and for me. All paid by the government.

There may well be such people and agencies in your area too. I would strongly suggest to you that your first great effort has to be finding such people within a reasonable distance from your home and determining how you can get their services.

If you tell me the state or country you live in we can take this discussion further. I wish you all the best. Take care.