Interesting that you have intimacy issues - that's
exactly what I'm dealing with. And that's why I chose a male T this time. I had two female T's years ago for short periods, and we made a lot of progress on other things, but now I'm down to the core issue of intimacy. I could talk to a woman T about it, but I need to
experience it with a man. Apparently there's a lot I never got from my father. My T is trying very hard to build up emotional intimacy with me, but I keep backing away. It's coming across in my dreams loud and clear, so I know this is important. It's terrifying, but I'm stubborn.

At my age, I'm running out of time, and it's now or never. An interesting journey ... if I survive it

Glad you seem to have found a T that you can work with!