I think I have the rapid cycling...but am not sure what is "normal"...so how can you ever really know? All my life I have thought that others reactions to situations were very, very mild...and I never understood it (still don't) but am now being told/shown that it is MY reactions that are out of the norm, and since I am already 50 yrs old, and have had a different view for a looooong time, I find it extremely tough to reconcile what I feel with what is real. How does one know what is appropriate, or what is over the top and manic, or depressive? How do you know what is rapid cycling, and what is just emotion or....I dunno....just...how do you know? My p-doc seems to be seeking a pattern in my situation, and I have not been able to really identify any pattern, except that ever since I can remember (at least since puberty) my emotions have been super strong, and until last year, I thought they were "normal". The seroquel I take now zombies me out, to the point where I have mostly just apathy...but I care enough to know I don't like that feeling either. Better to feel almost nothing...or better to feel everything waaaaay too much? Playing around with diff drugs and dosages for over a year, and still not able to function in what would be considered a "normal" lifestyle...i rarely ever feel UP anymore, either DOWN, or nothing. Do you guys have that same kind of thing going on? I know it is sooooo variable...but man, what a pain in the butt this is!