Hi, I am 50 yr old woman diagnose with bipolar just over a yr ago after a suicide attempt which landed me in the hosp, they kept me for 5 days (against my wishes, of course...you may know how that is, some of you)...I am still trying ti get to a place in my head where I am glad that I was found "in time", and I can work again, and function normally in society. I rarely go out now, my motivation is usually zero or lower, and I actually become very anxious when I even think ofgoing out (I used to be very social, but when I look back..I am not even sure that was me!) and although my p-doc and loved ones keep saying it will be just fine, it will get better, etc...I don't know how to get there. I see many posts on this site that mirror my feelings and experience, and some that give me hope for recovery.