Hi magic. You don't have to be destructive...but relearning will take time. I have my T to talk these things through with... glad you have PC also.

Just by remembering events or issues won't make them go away. They aren't filed completely by the brain (when it's a traumatic event, memory.) By going over and over the memory, reevaluating it, not giving in to it (It's always my fault) trying to gain a new perspective (how could a child control an adult?) will help.

PTSD isn't going away, but you can make it so it doesn't intrude into every aspect of your life. My family left me. I hope you can find a way to keep what you want. TC