Gulas, stay sober 1 minute at a time if you have to. Whatever you do do not pick up that first drink. I've been in and out of AA a few times, been to rehab four times. I finally got tired of fighting. Each relapse I had the consequences got worse, and I had a harder time starting over. I pray that my last relapse was my last one, because I honestly believe that if I pick up a drink again, I'll wind up dead.

I'm throwing myself into AA this time, more than I ever have before. And it is helping me. I've joined a home group and I'm active in it. I've got a great sponsor and I'm going through the steps with her again. I see that other people in my group are staying sober, despite having problems in their lives, and that makes me believe that I too can stay sober with help.

It's hard to admit we need help and ask for it. But it's definitely not weak. Asking for help is one of the strongest things you can do.

Hang in there.

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