Sarah Michelle, that sounds so hard.... people are all so different, but I know I would struggle so much if my therapist just disappeared to another country. You are really pushing through. I wish you had an alternate therapist to help you out while your current one is gone. Did you talk to her about that at all? The no money thing is such a barrier, it makes me mad. I hope you are able to keep holding up, I bet your therapist hopes so too. I'm sorry you feel so many awful feelings... really, even though you must feel terrible, I think you're very brave for getting through this and I am sending warm thoughts your way.
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Originally Posted by SarahMichelle
its been 2 months since our T got called away for a family emergency. she's still out of the country. she emails and calls whenever she cant but that isn't often...always internet or phone issues. and so many dr appts for the family member she's caring for. we are really falling apart. when we're not at work, we just want to sleep. we go to bed at like 8:00 now...we didn't go to bed this early in the 1st grade 
T knows how we're doing...but obviously she can't do much from where she is.
another T isn't an option right now (no money)...not much is an option right now except for waiting for her to come home. and she still doesn't know when she will be home 
we're just hanging on by a thread here and feeling really stupid, ashamed, and pathetic for doing so badly. just not talking much, eating much, or doing much anymore. work alter takes over and does 8 hours at work pretty well during the day, thank goodness. then we get home and just want to sleep the time away. we just need our T to come home.
we miss feeling safe. its too hard to go from 2 sessions a week to nothing. its too hard from having someone loving and caring around to being alone most of the time and feeling abandoned. |