I feel a bit the same way . . . I normally don't even try to look for work, but today I am doing some online appplying and it's depressing. I don't have any real skills anymore, and I am also having thoughts of ending my life. On the other hand there are some very good options that I could take, including study, and there is always a job every now and then which seems perfect for me, and as long as that happens i can't feel depressed all the time.