This is true.

I'm just so confused. I don't know what to do. I'll probably give it some more time and see what unfolds. It was so difficult for me to go at all and open up as much as I have so far.

A big part of me is just really struggling with therapy in general too. Like, I just have a hard time "letting people in" IRL, ya know? Maybe NOT having someone else take the lead is what I need in that case; I'll be forced to do it. But it just.....hurts. Then again, maybe therapy is just not my cuppa cuppa and I can't be helped. UGH.

I hate the fact that I had the crappy life that put me here.