i am so scared to death of getting that out of controle again.i know that i do decide not to act this way any more but i get scare of what i would do if truely confronted with all thwe memories of my past.my T said she knows it wouldnt be good for me to be bombarded with all these things and memories and that we can go slow and all.i love that she has rarely pushed me to talk at all.only when she felt it would be bad for me not to talk or her knowing what is going on.maybe it will be ok