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Originally Posted by skycastle
I'm okay, just my head spins when I think about scheduling an appointment. I don't know what's wrong with me. I think I can get through the night but I know I need to take some kind of action soon. I don't know  The last time I saw her, she asked if I wanted to reduce sessions, like I'm doing great, and now I feel embarrassed to tell her anything differently because I feel as if she'll think I'm making it up. I have this really bizarre hang-up that people will think I'm making things up--sometimes *I* think I'm making things up!! For some reason though I'm more comfortable talking to her than to the front desk people. One of the front desk people is really really sick, and I think the other person may be stressed about taking on extra work, and then now I'm making a mess of things for them. I used to have a really sick parent and I think sometimes it's all connected. |
I understand. I just saw T on Monday and not again until next Thursday. The thought of a full week is making me nervous. I'm not in a good place even though I go through times during the day where I feel great, then I crash and I want to call T but I don't want to bother her or worry her or make it seem like I'm making it up just to see/talk to her. I've always been one to help others and asking for help myself is too hard.
Does she do email? Maybe you could call during a time you know you could leave a voicemail and just let her know you're checking in and think you could use a session to get through a few things. You don't need to be specific.
I've only ever called my T for a crisis once and was hoping to leave a VM but she answered at 8p! I kept stumbling over my words because I was too surprised to figure out why I called. Once I got it out and told her I was able to calm down and we had a session the next day.
Anyway- I tend to ramble..
You're NOT a loser. Hang in there and I hope you call or make an appointment soon. Please try not to worry about the others (receptionist or whatnot) you need to take care of you.