Isn't it amazing how we can go from one extreme to the other? When I went into therapy today, she asked me how I was doing? Of course, I said "Fine, how are you?" Actually today I did have a good day at work.

BUT, she wants me to go back and 'process' what was going on the past few days since we last met. It is odd to go back to that. I do understand that just yesterday I was in a mess with my emotions. It feels like it was a month ago!

It's almost like there are two Squiggles. I feel that I can be two totally different people. I wish I could predict which Squiggle will show at any given time, but unfortunately I can't.

I am on such a high right now! Not sure what really triggered this to happen. Maybe because I made myself go to therapy today? I did not want to at all. I felt that I had nothing to say. I knew she would bring up the email I sent to her, and I knew that I did not want to talk about it.

Well, we did, and it was okay. I was okay. We are okay. Therapy is okay. She didn't throw me out of her office. She didn't scold me. She didn't make me feel embarrassed about anything. She was just herself. The same all the time. No matter what I talk about, no matter how I act, no matter how ugly I get, she is still the same.

I don't see how they do it. She says it is because she does not take any of it personal. She tells me that this is how 'we' (clients) are able to 'get things out' and work through them. Therapists have to be that safe place where we can be ourselves and just do what we need to do to get over some things.

She even talked about my 3 day trip next week. I didn't want to talk about it because I would be missing my session and I didn't know how I was going to handle that. She told me 'tips' of what to do if my anxiety level was rising. She told me that I could contact her at any time and she would return my call asap if I needed her to. She told me to email her on my way to the location and let her know how things were going. She told me to email as much as I need to and that if I need an immediate reply, tell her that I need that.

Wow! Who wouldn't want to have a therapist? They can be the best "nonfriend" you can have! You get what I mean about nonfriend? They cannot be our friend but they can be someone that is pretty incredibly special and awesome!