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Originally Posted by beautiful.mess
Thanks for being supportive.  Yeah, this is my first time in therapy, and so of course I have NO idea what to expect. I'm already thinking of what my conversation is going to entail for next weeks session, and then I'll go from there. I've been tossing around the idea of calling another t, but as I said, it's just so friggin' exhausting to make the call, go in for the "first" appt, give your background, then try to trust them.....you know what I'm talking about.
But then again, after you found a t that you clicked really well with, did you actually look forward to going each week? 'Cause I'm not at that point yet, and I can't decide if it's because of my t or because of therapy in general. |
Most of the time. After my first session with her, I broke down crying. I canceled the morning of my second session. I was ready to bolt. She called me and left a message making sure I was okay and said she was concerned that I had canceled.
Now, I only cancel when I need to. I do have high anxiety and so many sessions I'm scared and would love to just not go, but I know from previous sessions that, that's when I need to go the most. I feel like she truly understands me. I didn't feel that way before with the others. Therapy is hard. Sometimes is sucks. Sometimes it's great, mostly it's confusing and exhausting, but I'm more tired of suffering in silence.