There are some on here, I haven't been able to navigate around too easily to find stuff, but the home page has a lead to a Forum for PTSD. Kinda so is this thread.. I don't have the opportunity in my case to "face" my abusers. I feel like the past will never leave me alone. Sometimes I feel free from like said above by my ...tutor? up there above this.. I believe there must be a place past PTSD, I'm just afraid we may have to look at it as making us stronger for living thorough this and being able to prevent things from happening to others, or maybe just sharing stories so others know (like me now) that we are not alone in feeling this way. It seems to have lightened my load quite a bit. I still plan to seek a dr that works mostly with PTSD. When I can get to one!! I look forward to it still, which is a good sign. I remember I never knew until it was too late, as a child, that my elders contained evil. I trusted them, and now I trust few as a result. I learn instead to observe for longer and harder. I wish I had known that the evil isn't "love". I no longer have any idea that that is really supposed to be. I know its not supposed to be pain. This I have been told. Its kindof hard to trust though between molesters, abusers, neglect, liars.. santa cluase, the easter bunny... Sneaking under my pillow while I sleep to trick me for money? What did they expect? I guess I shouldn't put blame, they didn't know my molester paid my seven year old self to keep quite. WHY would I do that for money anyway. I notice this forum thing kinda just ends me up jabbering. What's with this? I hope I responded as I had intended to.. I think I added some extra .