thanx for the advice...i hear that im basically worthless so much that i really feel that i am worthless. theres alot of times where i cant even stand the sight of myself. i cant talk to any1 cuz every1 says its bs and that im trippin. no1 takes me seriously. im afraid that when they do it will be too late. i used to be a strong person for every1 else all the time but now i need some1 to b strong for me but ppl dont see it that way. sometimes all i need is a hug and an "it will be ok" and that seems too much to ask anymore. im really trying to feel like im worth it but when no1 else feels like you are its hard. but im goin to try what you said to do. i'll let you know what happens. again, thanx!