I totally understand not wanting to compare since it IS so personal and individual. It's just that much harder when you don't know what to expect, kwim? Then again, I'm SUPER IMPATIENT. I hate all of this waiting around and "sitting" with my feelings and whatever. I just want them gone, out of me and done with. I KNOW that's totally NOT realistic. I don't expect that. I know this is going to take work. But when you literally spend your entire life doing everything except for thinking about how you think or feel about any one thing, it just comes as a total shock to have that come to the fore and have that be ALL you ever think about; if that makes any sense. My mind has been in overdrive the past several months. I had no idea it would feel the way it does right now to be in therapy.

Thank you for listening to all of this. I tired telling some IRL friends about this and they're all like . Totally didn't get it. That's why I come here. I feel less crazy. And it keeps me going in between sessions.