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Oct 13, 2011, 02:06 AM

I e mail my T regularly and he always answers. He knows how much trouble I've had sleeping even though I've tried every med known to man. He also knows my family history i.e. I am the black sheep. At one point, my brother and SIL decided not to allow me to baby sit my neice because "mental illness can be soooo dangerous" I have DID, have had it for quite a while and raised two kids while dealing with it. Tonight T e mails me and tells me he thinks watching my new grandchild is too dangerous to the baby given how hard a time I've had sleeping. I could get psychotic.....

OMFG! Join the club with my brother! I have never been so hurt or blind sided in my life. I'm due to start babysitting Monday and he just pulls this out of his ***** NOW?? I would never in a million years harm anyone, let alone my grandchild! I told T about how hurt I was when my brother did that to me and now T does the same thing! I feel that he either wants to hear 1) I am fine or 2) I am sick , in need of comittment.
I'm so hurt I could die.

I can't see myself going back to him now.

BTW, My grandson is the only ray of hope in my life...the only person who always can make me smile. I love him more than anything.