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Originally Posted by nacht
Another new person. I was actually diagnosed with bipolar disorder in 2005, in what was supposed to have been my last year in college. I lost my insurance coverage in 2006 and stopped taking medication, and tried to deal with things without any help. This past April, I picked a fight with my boss that resulted in me quitting my job on a very unpleasant note, and proceeded to spend nearly everything I had on expensive clothing. I didn't even care about the lack of income because I was convinced I was going to be rich anyway from writing three books and starting my own clothing line. (...if you guessed that I don't even know how to sew, you would be correct.) I won't go into details, but that wasn't even the worst thing I did.
Long story short, I ended up at the hospital where I was started on Depakote. The medication seems to be working, though it's taken getting used to after so long with no meds. The thing is, now I'm having to face up to the huge bills and the debts I now have to pay, unemployed, and that is not helping my stress levels one bit. I really need a regular doc but I'm on the county's waiting list and there's no chance before March of me getting in to see anyone. I'm just exhausted and mortified and really just sort of want to hide from the world for a while. But I know that can cause a depression spiral for me, so right now I'm trying to work past how tired and discouraged I'm feeling. I finished my degree when my family had written me off, and I'll find a way to get through this too.
Nice to meet you all.  |
Boy, do you sound like me! I am all alone as well ... except for my friends here at PC. I too know what county "wait lists" are like. I just lost a friend to suicide because they didn't receive help in a timely fashion. He left a wife and three small sons ... and no income. Currently, I am without a T for similar reasons. I want a choice in my T. My provider says I ave to take the one they are "contracted" with. The H*LL with that. My mind is too valuable to me to entrust it to just anyone. Oh well, that is another issue!
Glad you finished your degree.
CONGRATULATIONS!
I bet you felt empowered! I did the same thing, but needed a lot of help during the last semester while I was practice teaching a bunch of 4th graders. After graduation. I choose another vocation and did well with it until my physical health completely broke down and I became permanently disabled both physically and mentally. However, I have made the best of it by staying involved in advocacy work for the disabled.
Try and work out a budget and do not be afraid of Food Pantries, Thrift stores, etc.
It is hard to go into those places when you are use to being self-sufficient. I had to do it, and it was the best thing that happened to me. I learned how to budget quickly ... tho' sometimes my mania would send me on a shopping spree (usually returned everything - wrong sizes, colors, etc) ... the depression that would follow was almost intollerable.
Between LOL from friends, I am making it OK ... by MY standards. I get by with little these days. I can't take anything to heaven but myself.
Whatever you do don't hide from people. It draws you into yourself when you need to get out of yourself.
Holler back when you need to. Don't be afraid of us here; we don't bite ... at least we are not suppose to.
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