stopdog, how long have you been seeing your new therapist? I think it's not long, is it? I would wait a little while before asking about taping. Get to know each other first. Maybe you will be trustworthy and you will not find that she is saying things about your past sessions that don't ring true. So there would be no need to have those tapes. I think asking for tapes right off without giving the relationship and her a chance sets kind of an adversarial tone. Maybe that's too strong a word... I would give it a little while, or until she starts saying things from previous sessions that you don't believe are true.

You mentioned you are "going into terror" with the new T. Have you told her you are scared? Do you know why you are in terror of her?

Good luck.