Why don't you take notes during session, or just slow things down in session? I have this bad picture in my mind of you listening to the tapes later and them just reinforcing, not alleviating, your fears and misconceptions. I'm not criticizing, but I am pointing out that you pick and choose what you respond to here on PC. A person writes 3 messages in their post, you respond to one thing, and seem to pass over, discount the goodness of the other two things. There is a lot of stuff here for you to go back and absorb, or to take to T, as Squiggle did.

The looking for "proof" is sounding a little paranoid, or just very high anxiety? Maybe that's where you are, and we need to accept that. I don't remember ever discussing medications - do you have a pdoc? You know I am saying this with great affection for you.