Being a parent is depressing me.

It could also be that I am off some of my meds. I am in the donut hole with medicare and they no longer are paying for my prescriptions and my selegiline is over $100 so I couldn't afford it. I was going to ask for half the Rx but tomorrow my electric is due or they will cut it off. I am wanting to go back to work part time but I have to complete a refresher course which costs about $100 per day and will total about $2000 and I don't have the money for my normal expenses let alone taking on that.

But about the parenting stuff....

My son has decided that he might move in with a friend who lives just a few miles from me. He says he will get a job where his friend works (retail) and his friend can drive him to work. He has never applied for a job before and I think he underestimates how hard it is to find work. His other plan is to get a job locally and ride a bike to and from work. First off this is a rural area and we have two grocers, three fast food places and a Kmart and that is about it. I have never seen a bike rack to lock a bike anywhere in the area so I don't know what he thinks he will do. And he seems to think that drivers will watch out for him. I was a paramedic. Drivers don't even watch out for themselves. I have a terrible fear that he will be killed or crippled on his bike. In Jan we put our check from filming with TLC in a joint account. It was only $3500 and I spent $1000 on property taxes and he has spent nearly $2000 on video games. I had intended to save that money and add to it to buy him a used car. Now I am angry at him for being irresponsible with the money and I don't see why I should bust my ***** working hard to save money for his car when he doesn't care if he gets a car. But he is delusional and thinks a bike will be a good solution. When I lived in town years ago I rode a bike to work about a mile when I didn't have a car. I learned that bikes and snow are a bad combination and ended up walking in the winter until I got a car. But he will be travelling more than a mile.

I am mad, I am worried and I am sick of him making poor decisions. What as a parent should I do?