The relationship between me and her have been at neck and neck more then I think she realizes. It's been getting even worse lately.

For the past 2 years it seems that she has yelled more and more, and lost her patience more and more. I get in trouble for some of the stupidest things ( forgetting a conselor appointment...), and it really makes me feel bad. I don't know if I'm the one screwing up, or if she is just too "edgy".

Half the time I feel really quilty for something I've done wrong, just because of the side she places me on. It seems I'm turned into the bad guy in the end when I felt in the beginning of the conversation/argument.

For example; I really, really, really screwed up on a lop while riding a horse. A bunch of the stable girls were watching my lesson, and I felt really upset. Why? I don't do well in the self-esteem area when I do something in front a few people. I know that they are judging me, and it really upsets me. So, anyway, I get i nthe care, and my mother asks, " What's wrong?". I tell her, and guess what, she starts yelling saying, " There's nothing to worry about, blah, blah, blah", but the way she takes 1) And accusatory tone, 2) The way she makes me sound like the bad one here, and 3) Never really makes me feel better.

When you talk to your mother (and she's said it), it's supposed to make you feel better, not worse.

She's done many other things, but this is a strikingly long summary.

Nowadays, I just can't wait until college to get up and out of her house.