or even to ask somebody pray for me (note: I am not asking any of you to pray for me now).

Just feels... there are many who would need it more, and why would deities be bothered with worries of white, lower-middleclass chick from country with reasonable HDI with few quirks and worries (which I can mostly work on myself, no need for miracles and cosmic interventions).

don't know... I pray for others often, for the world and so on.. but I just cannot ask even for bit of serenity for myself.