I keep wanting to run. I keep wanting to just call it quits. Just get out before it devours me. But it's not bad! My relationship is doing rather well lately. For the most part we do well. For a couple months we hit a rough patch where he called off our engagement but things have gotten back to normal for a while now and we're back to the same old.

But since it's been called off I want to run. I'm tired of hiding the fact that I'm NOT OK with it being called off. There were reasons for wanting to marry him and for me those reasons have not changed but apparently his have. So I want to run. I want to hide. I want to leave before I'm destroyed. Will I spend the next 5 years in this relationship only for him to never marry me and one day leave?

He said I don't trust him... I guess he's right. Since he called off the wedding every slight mention of him with a female makes my blood boil. Is there a way to trust when he says he doesn't want to marry you anymore?

He's a very good man, I guess he just doesn't want to be with me for very long. But doesn't want to lose me now but I'm not that person. I'm not just time to kill!!!!!!!