Dont get me wrong, I think its wonderful that you guys love deep thinking, its comforting and relaxing and so much more. I havent found that. If any of you are Stephen King fans, there is a book called needful things. The story is about a man (I guess he's the devil aka an evil so and so) and he gives some sunglasses to a character in the book. She spends her days wearing the sunglasses transfixed in her fantasy world. She enjoyed her world. When I was in my fantasy world which had nothing to do with the devil just people and their own shadow (evil ) self. I didnt enjoy that world and I dont exist in it anymore, but my brain is a taking a bit of time to get to its old self again. Im doing all I can and Im practising being present , I think its meditation and they use it in buddhism. I wish I had practised this earlier, as its clean, non political and non religious and no doctrine etc. Im not sure what my mind is about, as I think it sort of checked out awhile back, but obviously its working as Im typing away, I think I have an overactive imagination, that is slightly academic, I like to debate and discuss, and write blogs. I guess its a way of coping. I think Im still emotionally recovering, there is no cure and its a daily struggle and process. But Im grateful that I found the mindfulness technique.
Best wishes
Mala