I was hoping to go out to dinner. He works until 6. I've asked him for 2 weeks to get today off work but he always "forgot" and now he works until 6. I didn't tell him why I wanted him to have the day off I just said I wanted to spend time together. He has a 3 hour break from 12-3 today and that's when I was hoping he and I could spend time together going to lunch and doing things we both like since my daughter will be in school. But now it looks like it's going to be an awquard 3 hours when he gets home. He hasn't been online to check his email on facebook and if he doesn't before he comes home idk. It's gonna be uncomfortable now no matter what after the email I sent. I've been holding it all in for 2 weeks and just let it all out. I don't know if it's going to make things better or worse but I had to say something. I feel like a punching bag right now. He gets upset and because I'm there he takes it out on me sometimes. He just picks an argument with me when he's upset. Then his Grandma (who we moved in with because HE wanted to) gets onto me saying it's not right for her grandson to wait on me hand and foot and that I'm basically lazy and do nothing and he does everything. But that's far from the truth. He does cook for me and get me things like drinks and such. But it's because we live with his grandmother and I dont feel comfortable going through her kitchen. I do clean and do things, more than he does most of the time but it's all unnoticed. It seems like I'm just not good enough for him or his family. I feel like I'm a punching bag and they're all going to town on me.

He's a good man and does a lot for me. It's so hard to find someone like that. He makes me laugh and so happy. He treats me so well and I love him dearly. But love isn't always enough and it seems like his love is fading. Our relationship seems so perfect, destined to last... But we seem to be programed to wreck even destiny.

I don't know how to fix it. I think he's keeping something from me. He's been having trouble in the relationship and instead of trying to work on it like me, he's keeping it in and not allowing me the chance to fix it or help it. It's like he's made up his mind it's not going to work and I can't change it. I don't know if it's really that way or not but it feels like it is.

I guess the day will depend on how he is when he gets home in 30 minutes. I just want to run into his arms hug him and not let him go. But when I see that look that he's not happy, I just want to run past him as far as I can without looking back.