Well, that was not astonishing, but I guess it was helpful.

It was a first appointment. That is how the first appointment is supposed to go, right.

First there was the waiting room. Then there was the meeting. The annoying dumb history taking. The leaving. "ok, bye!"

I tried to get as much info as I could out of the T just because I wanted to know if we could work together well. For her I got the sense she was listening so hard that she didn't really take the opportunity to formulate a plan.

I pretty much have to admit I was nervous and not really sure how much to share.

She was like, do you want to have CBT? Talk therapy? A combination of the two? (She does both). I honestly do not want to sit through the beginning of CBT, I know all the "thought distortions" and stuff by heart. It is too basic and I would feel terrible giving my money and giving the time and effort but not really getting a benefit.

What do you guys think on this board? (Yes I seriously want to know!) Do you think CBT or talk therapy would be better?

I told her some stuff that I knew she was going to judge negatively and she did. That is ok. I really want to know what she thinks. I wish there had been more of that. But it was polite, the beginning.

We didn't get along like gangbusters but it was fairly sound. I am not sure about what meeting more will actually accomplish so I feel like I now need to develop a plan. It's weird I don't know if I want to waste my time in therapy. I feel so anti expressive today, hehe. Can't even really explain it.

I know what it was. There was a lot of talking about feelings... but no emotional contact or moment of like "FOOM! that makes sense!" I hope the whole thing won't be that way because it was like unsatisfying.