i am so sorry to hear about your loss...somehow losing a loved pet cuts deeper than a person...we seem to be able to grieve more freely & deeply..maybe because the bond is more open & honest.

be grateful you enjoyed the time you had with your dog...it sounds cliche but you had some great memories that you can keep close. i have lost many dogs (& a few cats) over the years & while the pain is still there so are the happy memories.

unfortunately vet care is & can be expensive. it scares me because i am in the same boat you were...if one of the herd becomes seriously ill or requires emergency care my options are very limited. my brain understands but sometimes the heart takes a bit longer to fall in line...

let the healing begin...go slowly, be gentle..don't doubt your decision...it was the best option there was & it is done. make peace with it.

stumpy