WOW thanks everyone for the responses ... to answer a few questions ..

I have been bipolar all my life i have come to realize ,someone FINALLY caught it at age 44 . My main problem with Seroquel is of course the weight gain ... Since i have severe FIbromyalgia I cant just go work it off walking running or hitting the gym ... i also understand now that i certainly dont want to go on the old school drugs due to the risk of Tardive dyskinesia..

Im just so utterly frustrative with the side effects ie: weight gain ... I do need to go see my my primary doctor as i feel there is a good chance i could be diabetic and this would be from the seroquel as its a risk ..I was diabetic when pregnant with my daughter and i have the same feelings .

My Pdoc took me off seroquel after i gained 20 lbs in 4 weeeks due to risk of diabetes .. then within 2 weeks i had to go back on it since i hadnt slept in 5 days and was on the verge of a huge breakdown and another trip to the pysch ward .

Im just so insanely confused and pissed off about the side effects of medications .Yes like Most Bipolar people i want to just stop taking my medications ...BUT i know ill wind up suicial and back in the psych ward .. which isnt really a good idea since i have been there 3 times this year ... Dont want to be a frequent flyer LOL ....

I am proud of myself ,,despite all this stress and weight gain i havent cut in 5 weeks ,, i think of it all the time but so far i have been able to control it I use to cut if i felt i gained a lb and I honestly think it would help me ( sounds weird) but its a promise i made to my husband and so far i havent broke it .

Yes most of my medications are not very expensive ,, my pdoc keeps me in samples of seroquel as that would cost me almost 500 a month .. no way i can do that ,, even tho the rest are generic im not sure how much longer i can have access to them because my husband will be losing our health insurance within the next few months ,, so i worry about having to get off the xanax and halcion ... Benzois are not a good thing to just stop on your own .... the reason i take 2 halcion a xanax and seroquel at nite is becaue im unable to slow my brain down its always racing so the insomnia is Horrible .

thanks fro reading my rant ,,I know im not the only person in the same situation ... I just wish they could come up with a good medication that doesnt make you want to eat everything that doesnt move ...LOL

Wishing you all love and peace <3