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Elysium · Oct 13, 2011, 10:35 PM

Thanks you guys for all the support!!

It's helpful to hear from you and it helps me feel less alone.

I promise I won't cave. It's really not a thought in my mind. It's just the fear that she's going to come here and expect me to cave, and if I don't, I don't know what she could do. I never expected her to be able to do what she did to me on Saturday.

I know I did what I could to help her, and she made her own decisions. She really burnt a bridge and there's no rebuilding.

I just need to do some self soothing and relaxation....and just take one moment at a time. Ugh....it really is so easy to say...my internal therapist is in over-drive, yet so is the PTSD.

I'm going to go make a little dinner. I don't have much appetite, but I'm going to try.

I'm going to sleep with my phone in bed with me....under my pillow.....and maybe even sleep with my Pepper Spray.