I'm starting to understand more as I experience more. Today my boyfriend yawned and I got upset over such a small thing I knew it was a trigger. It helped me to identify something. I'm not sure exactly what yet, but this trigger bit, I suppose. For instance, I've known that being called stupid is a trigger for some reason and will make me just explode when you could call me a b**** or c*** all day long and get nothing out of me. As I think about it, it makes sense. I think because of this "complex" part of PTSD I have to learn alot of "triggers"... Will this ever end? (rhetorical) Anyway, back to the point.. Seeing that I am reacting to a trigger and not actually thinking about the real life situation I'm in helps me to return myself to a calmer state. And I have this thread to thank for helping me identify a major one that I believe will take me a long time to accept is even true completely, but one day I will dull that trigger down so that when it tries to stab at me it has no substance with witch to penetrate.