What kind of cross are you talking about? I have all sorts of small crosses in my life that add up to one big cross called LIFE itself. Each one on the small crosses have weights all of their own, when added together, their weight is unimaginable.

My crosses deal with multiple medical issues, multiple financial concerns, multiple mental health issues, disappointments, failures, grieving and despair. These issues are much for me to bear! Some crosses come from within myself; some crosses come from outside myself. I can gain some control over what comes from within; that which comes from outside I can discard if I want. I need wisdom to do that.

I guess I take each one of these things at a time, so that, the whole picture does not become too much for me. I have a rapid cycling BP condition with suicidal ideation, which means I have to be very carreful not to be come overwhelmed or take on too much responsibility, or I am in trouble with suicidal thinking. That is not a good place to be in. It is a very lonely place because you lose your sense of belonging to the human race.

I am blessed, however, with many understanding friends, and a deep belief in the love of a personal God. I carry both in my "survival kit" for ready use ... sometimes, I need just a bandaid, othertimes, it is a splint.

As far as my heavy cross of LIFE is concerned, I cannot carry it alone. I ask and receive help from wherever or whomever I can. Do not let your cross become too heavy or it can crush you to the ground. It is hard to get up when that happens. Holler back when you want to.