Hey, Terry: I don't feel guilty about my feelings of love for my t, because they are real...not right or wrong....simply real. I waited about a year before I told my t about my feelings, and when I left, broke down sobbing for quite awhile ..I wanted to be authentic with him and not hide. My feelings haven't changed in 7 years ...the fact that he is married (I am not) just "kills" me......it is a hurt not explainable (I think) with words.