hmm. it's different experience, or so i'm told, for everyone in the system. But for me, personally, as i don't like to speak for everyone else. I feel unreal; dreamy. i zone out, and lose track of time. the way it used to be is that i'd freak out being in a new place when i'd front for the system; it was sudden and jarring.

now, though, since we all weave in/out every few days, everyone has gotten used to our host's life, and we know, now, what he wants/needs.

usually, so i've noticed when the host dissociates, he feels unreal. Last time we had it bad, which was Wednesday in therapist's office (which was a bad day anyway) it was some of the deepest dissociation he's had in a while. He kept going in/out, and trying to escape, but our therapist kept him in limbo. (because one of our bad alters was being angry, and therapist was concerned he'd take over if the host left/dissociated too far). But he was experiencing the typical "my body isn't real. i have no legs. no arms, no torso... i'm like a floating head. didn't think he could move at all. that sort of thing.

usually when this happens, he goes away, and one of us takes over for a while.