what do you want for yourself? I remember you posting how you felt better than ever on meds... so to be honest, these post sound off coming from YOU.

you don't have to be stable or whatever for anybody but yourself. Or feel comfortable in your skin. you decisions should not depend on others.

you are in bad place now. take your time, breathe, relax and don't do any hasty decisions. after few days you can start analysing, calmly how you feel about the whole thing.

Do you have a therapist or somebody insightful to talk to? Somebody who can devote you more than few minutes?