Thats exactly why i d0n't want my meds. I want to feel everything, n0t this water'd down version. I want to hurt till i'm ready to die, i want the anger to enc0mpass me, i want the anxiety to eat at my body. AND THEN? Then i want to be so happy love d0n't c0me close to an explanati0n, i want to laugh with my whole heart and i want to feel God!