Salmacis,

Hang in there. It does get better. I'm not saying sobriety is all sunshine and roses, there are a lot of rough patches, especially when dealing with emotions during the first year, and learning to get through events without using. But I can honestly say at 7.5 months sober, it is better. I still get urges to use, but they're not all the time any more, and I can usually think through them pretty quick. And in addition to meetings I'm doing all sorts of things I'm enjoying, like taking on-line courses, learning more about knitting so I'm making all kinds of great things, and volunteering.

I know what you mean about meetings and rehab and all the forced sharing being really hard. I'm a massive introvert, so I really struggled with this at first too, but it does get easier with time. LOL I've even reached the point where I'm willing to let people hug me which is a great thing, 'cause up here AA seems to be full of huggers.

Just take it one day at a time, or one hour at a time if you have and don't use.

Good luck.

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