I did not realize what this was called until I told my T what was happening. He told me to go home and look up dissociation on the net and one of the four (I think) types would fit what was happening. He wanted me to tell him on my next visit which type I thought it was. When I read about depersonalization the experiences fit.

For me I would just be doing normal things and then suddenly I would be standing behind my left shoulder watching myself. The person in front of me would be talking but I would not be moving my lips. It is so hard to explain. During that time I felt nothing. I was just watching from over my shoulder. After it was over I would think I was losing it. I would just drop everything and leave.

I talked to my T and PDoc about this. I asked my T if I should worry about it. He said it was a really good stress relief mechanism and that it was common during deep depression and I really should not worry unless I remained in this state. ????????

Until last week this type of experience is the only way that this occurred for me. But one night last I had a dream. About half way through the dream I woke but I could still see the other characters in the dream. I followed myself down the hall and watched the conversations I was having with other people.

I have never been scared when this is taking place as I feel like an observer. Though with this last one I am really starting to worry.