I don't even know where to begin. I literally despise my life; but I would never turn to suicide. My family hates me, no one accepts me. All my friends suck. They dont give two shits about me. The one guy I loved, got away. I lie about him everyday saying we're still together, but we're not. Just the imagination that we are gives me some happiness, but then I get depressed all over again...I just hate my life so much. I really do.