I am sorry Lydia if i hurt your feelings....my intention was to arrive at the reason for your loneliness so that corrective action could be taken....loneliness takes out all the joy from living...but i see you have many hobbies to occupy you---aren't they too like friends to you ?difficult though it is;still keeping busy will give you satisfaction & less time to brood.Take care & be hopeful....these days too will pass.