It's not crazy. If you're one of the ones who suffer from October for a... I guess you could say spiritual... reason, it's not crazy at all. You would be more nuts if you loved this month after the history...

Either way you're not crazy, we have our hard times and we have our strong times. Sometimes we just need a shoulder or a ear, that doesn't make us crazy, it makes us human! Maybe call your t and NOT hang up this time, even if you only say 2 words... The best of luck to you, I hope you are feeling better soon!