I need a therapist! I don't know how! I don't have medical and I'm not sure if the community has many options for cheap or free t's since it's such a small town but I need one. I am doing well on my own. I am doing very well considering what has been happening but I feel the progress slipping. I know I've made a wrong turn, I know somewhere I am doing things terribly wrong and I need to fix it. I need knowledgable outside eyes and ears to help me put the pieces of my life back together. I've done so well without therapy for the last 2 years. SO well... But now I need to go back...

I have no car. My boyfriend knows of my history and my mental disorders but he told me when I told him those things he thought I was making it up or exaggerating. I was not. I tell him that but he doesn't comprehend it and he is one of those "If you're unhappy it's because you're unhappy with me not with yourself" and his whole family they are the hush hush people where very few mental problems get noticed or spoken of. If I had a therapist I would have to go directly through my boyfriend to be able to go. I would have to have a ride there... But he doesn't get why. I don't want him to think there are any troubles in the relationship because it is perfect the way it is, I am very happy with him... But I don't know how to tell him I need help!

I've been in and out of therapy for 10 years. I've always been the one to ask for help before it was given. I willingly was admitted into a hospital at 15, my idea. I asked for help when it was too much. But now I can't ask for help, I don't know how. I don't know what's changed where I am afraid to ask for help now... I don't know what to do but there is a void. I need a therapist... I need a non judgmental non biased person to talk to that understands the complexities of the mind. I'm far from SI or suicide or anything of that sort but I need more understanding, or I'm going to fall back down! My progress is too important to me to let it slip, I just don't know how to ask for help... How to tell him I need help...