i often feel that i have never experienced love either... to me, if someone loves you they just do and it shouldnt really ever change. i think people have loved me like that, i just (speaking for myself here and not suggesting that youre doing this, OP) either discount that love or dont let it in.

i know the people that really love me because they are faithful to me. they just never go away. they are few, but they are there

i also received the "programming" that i had to be and do something to be loved... which made me never feel loved because i always felt that i was never doing enough, and i couldnt love others because i would apply the same standard to them