I concur. NOT stupid at all.

I feel this way ALL THE TIME. Mostly, I'm really, really annoyed by it, because to me, it's not a rational feeling that I'm accustomed to. And I just don't want to be bothered feeling it because I don't know what to do about it; so it's just there, every day, all the time. I miss my t every time I'm not there, and when I am, I clam up and am afraid.....terrified of fully opening up.

You're definitely not alone.