I so understand. You're not being stupid it all. I understand so well that you're missing your T. Its hard to have weeks when there are no sessions. Having your T is someone you can connect to and someone you can connect to. We all need that. My therapist has been gone for 2 months, and I'm justthisclose to going completely crazy without her, I miss her so much. I think its encouraging that you miss your T-- it means that you have bonded with her, which is important in therapy, and that therapy is a good thing for you.